As a mom, I want to always be at my best for Bunny. Her best playmate, her best buddy, her best mommy, and the list will go on. At times though I would have my bad days. You know? Days when you just want to stay in one corner, binge watch Grey’s Anatomy and eat popcorn the whole day. Days when you just want to sleep and relax, wake up late and eat.
Hormones? Maybe, but I know that we all have our off days. Believe me when I say that I had those days before and up until today. Before it was easier, because I didn’t have Bunny factored in. I can just lay back and detach myself from the universe as I recuperate from my off day.
Now it is different, now I still try to be in my best mood when Bunny is around. It is not easy. My patience is shorter and to be honest I end up not being a good mummy. This breaks my heart when I see her pulling up her sad face. I then hate myself for not being in a good mood that day and for hurting her feelings. It is hard, because I only want Bunny to see the best side of me.
This is a struggle that all moms face, not just me. I realized this when I talk to other moms and when I see posts on Facebook from my other mummy friends. That is why I want to shout out to all the other mummies out there, it is okay not to be okay. It is. You are just human, after all. You have your off days and when you do know that it is okay. Your little bundle of joy will still love you for having an off day. Your little one should know that mummy has an off day because she will learn how to deal with it when it happens to her.
I know this as a fact that even Bunny has an off day. Usually she’s clingier than usual to me or my mom and would not mind anybody. She would lie down the floor or just insist on staying inside our room, or her version of my off day is to watch Elmo’s World and eat puffs. That is why it is okay mummy to not be okay.
Showing her your off days will help her deal with her own off days. Your little one will still love and adore you, just ask the help of your hubby or partner or relative when you have your off day. Just make up for it when you’re feeling better because everything will be just fine.