It’s been a while since my last post. Been a bit busy fixing final documents and reports. I must admit that I questioned my decision to leave, but I know that I made the right decision. I guess the questioning and doubting is part of the whole process.
When I left SVI, I felt the same way. I filed my resignation letter but my boss didn’t want to sign it. She wanted to do everything that she can to keep me, and I appreciate that, really. I saw just how nice she is, and how much she looked after my welfare. She is an amazing person, seriously. I can compare her to Miranda Priestly. She is very dedicated to her work, and she does everything, and I mean everything that she can to make it work. She is strong willed and she’s very professional, that and she wears awesome clothes!
She trained how to be a good category buyer, and she even assigned me to her favorite category, which according to my colleagues, is the biggest and hardest category in our division. I guess she was training me to be the next her. I know that somehow, I disappointed her when I decided to leave. I was starting to love what I was doing, but I had to make the choice between pursuing something that I want over something that is safe. I chose the former.
After days of tossing and turning, I decided to leave. We had numerous conversations, and even one of my colleagues tried to make me stay. However, I knew that I would regret more something that I didn’t do. So with a determined heart, I told her that I really wanted to pursue advertising. She said that she understands and she even gave me sound advice as to what I should do when I leave. Up until today I remember her words, her exact words.
Today, I can say that I am at the scene where Miranda sees Andy again after Paris. She would give me her stamp of approval with a silly little smile. Because, I am actually following her advice, and that I am doing everything that I can to be happy.
I cried and regretted my decision to leave SVI, I was earning more, I was in a place where I fit in, and I developed strong bonds with my colleagues. I know that it was just temporary, and I know that I made the right decision, the same way that I know that what I am doing is the best for myself and for my career.
It’s hard because I have fallen in love with what I am doing, and hard because I am leaving people who mean a lot to me. They are not just mere colleagues, they are also my friends. I may not have shared a lot with them, but in their own little way they are special.
My last day with them is on Wednesday. Changes are here, and there’s not turning back. I just have to suck it up and get it over with. Every time I question my decision, I just tell myself that I need to do this. I have to be foolish and I have to explore what else is out there for me.
That’s all for now. 🙂