Yesterday, we went to a playschool for a trial class. See, mummy and daddy wants to see if you are ready for playschool. We are thinking of enrolling you to the Summer class first and see if you enjoy it.
Mummy, being a digital practitioner, searched for possible playschools for you to try. My search ended up with two possible playschools for you. One was Junior Explorers Playschool and the other, which we visited today, Cradle. After discussing with your daddy, we chose to try out Cradle first. Location was an important factor plus, as daddy pointed out, it had more positive reviews online vs. Junior Explorers Playschool.
Mummy was super excited for you to visit playschool, with a bit of nervousness of course. I didn’t know if you would let me leave you with teachers and students. I didn’t know what to do as well if you cried when I left you. Maybe this was why I had a hard time sleeping the night before your big day. I kept thinking of different scenarios over and over. I blame the strat brain that I have, which has a tendency to overthink and plan as much as I can.
The day final came. We woke up a bit late, but I ensured you felt great. I started playing the Spotify playlist we made especially for you with nothing but your favorite Nursery Rhymes. You had extra fun with your bubble time, even if mummy cut it off so we can leave early.
You had no clue that you will go to school that day. I think, you just thought that mummy will take you somewhere. You were still playing with your box when I asked you to wear your shoes. You just smiled at me, with the usual twinkle in your eye when we go out together.
I asked you to wear your bag and briefed you (how agency talk of mummy) that we will go somewhere fun, where you will meet your teacher and new friends. Your lolo was super excited, he walked you to the gate and proudly said that his little girl will go to school.
I am climbed up first your Lolo Odie’s tryke, he was our service to Cradle. You soon followed when you and your lolo were done saying goodbyes.
On the ride to the playschool, you seemed to be nervous, you were clingy, you were looking at me as if asking why I asked you to wear a backpack and why I was looking at you differently. Love, I think you were worried for mummy. You see, I couldn’t fathom that the little bunny I once carried on my chest all night long is going to playschool. I know, it is just a trial. I knew though that if everything went well, I will enroll you and that it will start a new phase in our lives. Oh my bunny, it is a big milestone for us.
You held my hand tightly, squeezing my fingers. You were smiling at me and pointing things that you saw on the ride to playschool. It was as if you were silently telling mommy, it is okay that you are ready.
When we got there, I lead you inside and knocked on the door. Three heavy knocks on my heart echoed, this was the start of your schooling phase.
Teacher opened the door and asked us to take off our shoes. She asked us to wait for a while, she will call on your teacher for the trial class. You still held my hand while you looked around the room. You were starting to smile, even if you knew nobody but mommy.
Your teacher finally came out, and said hi to both of us. She was very direct to mummy, she told me that I had to leave you inside and I have to wait outside until your trial class is finished. She also told me that you will cry, but that it is normal. You will be with other kids your age and there were two to three teachers present for your class.
She asked me to leave your snacks inside, which I did together with your red Hello Kitty Eco Bottle. While I was signing their trial logbook, she held your hand and led you to your classroom. She introduced herself and the two other teachers. Oh love, it was so hard for mummy to not look back and call you. I knew it would be more difficult for you if I did. I knew that it will increase the chances of you throwing a fit.
With a lump in my throat and my heart, I went outside and left you with them. I wanted to cry, bunny. I wanted to go back in and hug you, my little girl. But I didn’t hear you cry, you didn’t need any distraction from mummy.
I patiently waited for you outside. 2 hours went by fast. I was chatting with daddy and ninang Jaja. I heard your class saying goodbyes so I knew you will be coming out anytime soon. It was such a sight to see that you ligned up to go out. You were in a straight line, hand over your other classmate’s shoulder. A smile was painted on mummy’s face, you were perfect in my eyes. What made mommy extra proud was the very good star stamp on your right back hand. When did you start growing up so fast, love? I want to pause that moment and preserve it in my memory forever.
Teacher asked me to go inside for your assessment. So I stood up quickly after giving you a kiss on your forehead. I looked at you differently that time, my tiny human is now a tiny school girl.
Teacher told me that you did cry, midclass. You joined the first activity but you got a bit distracted when a teacher left the room. Teacher said that maybe, you thought class was over and you will get to see mummy. But overall, she said you did great.
It seems as if you are ready for school. Mummy however, isn’t ready for your big leap to playschool. I will let you be, because you seem to be ready. I must accept that you are growing up, fast so damn fast for me to catch up with you.
Oh bunny, I love you so so much. Mummy is an emotional mess but you are awesome. And bunny, I am so so proud of you. I know also that you are proud of your achievement, you show off your star stamp every chance you get. Please please please stay the same. I love you forever, my little bunny.